Monday, May 7, 2012

The Beginning of What Comes Next

I spent the last three months of my twenties dreading turning 30. Really, really dreading it. We're talking tears on more than one occasion. 

It wasn't so much that I was entering a new decade as it was that my life was nothing like the way I thought it would be at 30. 

I went through more before my 28th birthday than most people go through in a lifetime, more than most people can even fathom. And through it all, I've come out a fighter. 

As much as I felt like 30 was the number of tragedy, it's been quite the opposite. It's been unapologetically liberating. 

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about where I am in life.

In a lot of ways, I'm not where "society" thinks I should be. I'm not where I thought I'd be. But I'm learning to be okay with that. I'm learning to take it one day at a time and do what's right for me, rather than do what others think is right for me.

I'm healing some broken relationships, while letting go of others.

I'm creating new relationships, both personally and professionally.

I'm learning to be okay with not being okay sometimes.

I'm nowhere I thought I'd be at this point in my life, but I'm everywhere I need to be.

I thought 30 would mean the end of a lot of things in my life. But that wasn't the case. Instead, it feels like the beginning of what comes next.

And I'm ready for whatever "next" may hold.


  1. I got the list of participants of Lovely Letters and am visiting :)

    I just wanted to say that I felt the same once I turned 30. (I'm now 34) and love my life more now than ever! I feel like the pressure is off for some reason.

    Great post!


  2. WaHoo, Awesome Awesome perspective!

  3. Such a great post! I'm so happy reading that :) Whoever came up with the rules of where we "should" be is a moron. I'm convinced we are where we are for a reason and that's exactly where God wants us to be. There is no one size fits all, cookie cutter plan for all women. What I do know is that God has a great plan for your life, likely bigger than you ever dreamed for yourself! You've really taken some giant leaps this last year in building this great new life for yourself. I can't wait to see where God takes you this next year!! Blessings my friend :)

  4. This is such a great outlook! Good for you! I found your blog through the lovely letters link up!



  5. Great outlook! And 30 isn't the end of the world. I felt that way about 25 so 30 seemed like a breeze. I am still not where I thought I would be but I am going with there is a reason and the rest will fall into place at some point.

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